No blood transfusiom

Dear insansapinas, 

source of photo: as marked in the photo
Di ba lagare ako noong isang araw sa dalawa kong doctor? Dahil nga doctor's order for blood works/ chemistry sa ospital, ang hinihintay namin galing sa oncology nurse, sabi ko sa kapatid ko, siya na lang maghintay at may blood works naman ako sa primary care para naman sa diabetes ko. Kasi nga ang problema ay kagaya noong kay Mario O' Hara na may cancer at mababa rin ang WBC, blood platelets. Kagaya rin kay Dolphy na may low blood count, RBC, etc.mababa ang immunity sa sakit.

Last Monday, ang WBC ko ay sapat lang para pag may nag-aaligid-aligid na sakit ay pwede kong gamitan ng ping pong paddle para huwag makalapit. Toink.Pero ang blood platelets ko na dapat magti-nikling between 250 to 450, ay nasa 40 lang. Daming bundok na aakyatin.

Eh tuwing ganito, hindi tuloy ang chemo.

Pero ngayong araw na nachemo ako, kasalukuyan kong tinutukuran ko ang aking mata sa antok habang pinaghehele ako ng malakas na snore ng pasyenteng katabi ko an upuan,  (malaki naman ang mga pagitan dahil sa mga equipment  pero malakas talaga ang hilik,talo ako),biglang lumapit ang mukha ng  oncology nurse sa aking mukha. May dala siyang frozen yellow cream. Ipapasok daw sa blood ko thru the pedi-port. PLATELETS. Yon pala ang pinirmahan ko na NO BLOOD transfusion, Yon lang mga kulang sa akin. Yong nasa harapang pasyente ko naman, pula (more of purple...baka RBC naman yon).

Kaya ngayon hindi ko kailangang pumunta sa Filipino store para kumain ng dinuguan. Poink.

Pinaysaamerika

Hat

Dear insansapinas,

I got two doctor appointments yesterday, the oncologist and the primary physician. After my blood test in the cancer clinic, I waited at the reception area to wait for the doctor's instructions for my chemo on Thursday.

The door opened. A lady who I think is a Filipina entered, signed the appointment list and sat down in one of the chairs. The door opened again. A young lady who also looked like a Filipina entered and sat down beside the older woman. She put up her two feet in the chair. The door opened again. An old man entered. He looked like a Filipino. He sat beside the two ladies. They talked.

I looked at my brother who was reading from Kindle. He looked at me like saying "What?". I asked, did you see my hat?

He looked at my head, short to saying, kung sawa yan, nalulon ka na.

I went to the primary physician for my blood works, EKG, etc. After the session with the doctor about my diabetes, high blood pressure and medications, I went back to the reception room. My brother was waiting. I looked at him and I was about to ask, Where is my hat? Before I could ask I saw from the glass, I was wearing it. Hindi ko pala inalis.

Upon reaching home, I found out, I lost it. Not the hat, Kulit ninyo.  One of the earrings. Hindi ako sanay eh. Noong meron akong buhok, I seldom wear earrings. The Hat? It is still with me. Tinatakpan ang akin kalbong ulo.

Eh bakit napasok ang earrings. Kasi nagsuot ako para magmukha akong babae. Che.

Pinaysaamerika







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Condolence to the Family of DILG Robredo

Dear insansapinas,
Since the plane crashed, I monitored the news. DILG Secretary Robredo was the former mayor of Naga City. He was the youngest mayor elected and the only awardee of Ramon Magsaysay for Government Service.

Today, they found the fusilage of the plane containing bodies. They are The bodies of Secretary Robredo , Capt. Jessup Bahinting and Nepalese Kshitiz Chand.

Divers found the plane's fuselage around 7:30 a.m. Robredo's body was found inside the fuselage at 7:45 a.m. His body was brought to shore at 8:40 a.m.

Date

Dear insansapinas,

I have been busy reading El Filibusterismo. No kids. Then I received a letter from a twelve year old girl asking me if I allowed my kids to go on date when they were her age.

Sagot ko. No. Kasi that age, my boys were still busy playing with their "barkadas" and watching wrestling. Tuksuhin mo sa babae, biglang iingos. The girls have crushes pero hanggang mga whispers lang. Ako noon, nakabilad sa araw makita ko lang ang crush ko na dumadaan sa bahay ng kaibigan ko. Arey.

Dito ang aga ng mga bata. Mga grade school pa lang may mga girl and boy friends na. O tumatanda lang ako. 

Pinaysaamerika

Sabunutan na lang

Dear insansapinas,

Sobra naman yong nanapak ng taga MMDA. Sabunutan na lang, lalabanan ko. mwehehehe. Malaki kasi ang katawan niya kaya matapang. Payat yong si Fabros kaya malakas ang loob niya.

 Ako kahit na nabawasan ng timbang, matambok pa rin ang pisngi. Dati nga mukhang bibingka yan eh na medyo sunog.  hehehe. 

Ngayon ala akong buhok, yong ulo ko para na lang niyog na inalisan na ng husk. 

Siyanga pala retired muna ang aking mga suklay. Walang susuklayin eh. Tipid shampoo. Hindi na kailangang magcurler sa gabi at magsuklay sa umaga.

Pimaysaamerika

No Chemo

Dear insansapinas,

This morning I went to the doctor's office to have a blood test before my chemo on Thursday. The doctor cancelled my chemotherapy treatment. The combination of the White Blood Corpuscles and platelets is not good. Wait another week said the nurse. It had been two weeks that my treatment is postponed because of my low blood count. But the bruisings are disappearing. Yong mga bruises pa naman ay yong para bang binugbog ka ng kontrabida sa pelikula na hindi ka nakailag.

 Kumakain naman ako pero sabi ng doctor, it is because of my liver na napakahinang magprocess. 

So my brother brought me home and I went back to the couch to go back to sleep. I was awake for three hours the other night. When I woke up, I have no appetite for my lunch. So I cooked adobo. My problem is I lost my taste, It is all bland, Sugar is not sweet, Salt is not salty and milk tastes water. glug-glug-glug.

This is what I planned to wear in my head--my black winter cap to go to the lab.  My big shades would hide my hairless eyebrows.

But I was in a hurry so I went out without any hat, bandana or cap. Di bale wala namang nanghuhuli ng kalbo. mwhehehe.

Pinaysaamerika

No Hair, Ma

Dear insansapinas,

When I was younger, I thought I became dumb whenever I had my hair cut. Like Samson whose strength

was on his hair, I had that silly notion that my intelligence is in my hair. Gupitin mo at magiging bobo ako.

I am very particular with hair shampoo. There was a time when I was buying one I liked which I did not know was being phased out in the market since it had a lot of carcinogenic ingredients. I do not know if it what caused my C.

When I was admitted in the hospital for respiratory failure last May, I still have full hair. When I woke up, the shampoo and conditioner in my bathroom shed "tears". 

When I was still working, I was so vain in my hair that my friend dared me if I can publish this photo of mine taken in the couch.

I did. Beh. 

Baka biglang mag-disappear.
Pinaysaamerika

Project

Dear insansapinas,

Since I was discharged from the hospital , I am having a hard time concentrating. I can not read books. I lost focus. So what I did during the time when I am trying to regain my strength and avoiding depressionl. I fixed some things which was part of my activities when I started getting sick. Here is the rosary that broke the strands. Okay na siya. Date bracelet ko, ginawa kong rosary. Milagrosa yan. 

and here is a bracelet that I bought from the Philippines that needed some change of the elastic thread that brings it together.

My brother bought this for me. A small blender. Small enough for my two meals. Hindi pwede diyan ang lechon.

Now my project is writing. Something to stimulate my brain. Kalat pa yata eh.

Pinaysaamerika